We've had a few more slow days. This bug has really been a bugger, so to speak. Joshua still isn't eating too much, although he does have most of his energy back. Nick has really had a difficult time shaking it. We were thankful for the few days that post was closed because it gave him a break from school and work. He worked some yesterday but ended up calling in sick today. I love having him around, but I'm praying that he can kick this thing for good soon.
I've been reading a lot lately about waiting. About not rushing out of whatever circumstance I am in and instead looking for God's purpose in it. Sometimes it's easier than others. One particularly rough night Joshua tearfully asked me, "Why doesn't God just heal me? I asked Him to!" That's hard to explain when even I struggle with that sometimes. As parents we try to protect our children from unnecessary suffering. The most comforting thing for Joshua as he dealt with his pains and discomfort was being next to me, having me hold him and gently rub his back.
So is all suffering that God allows necessary? Perhaps. It definitely can be used for His purposes. But sin is what brought suffering into the world. And ultimately sin is what causes our pain. Maybe not my personal sin, but sin itself. The sin inherent in all mankind. And when God does allow us to suffer, even as we pray for relief, we have to take time to look for His purposes. Not be in a rush to get out of the pain at the risk of missing the peace that comes from being held through it. And maybe that in itself is the blessing. The pause.








